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MOVED.

12:12 AM, Monday, November 2, 2009

yo home skillet, dudes and dudettes, i've moved from blogspot to tumblr. so my new url is lemuelsthoughts.tumblr.com

cheers (:

caution dangerous curves ahead.

7:01 PM, Sunday, October 25, 2009

found this somewhere on the internet.

You're Luckier Than You Think

The fact you are reading this over the Internet:
Means you are luckier than 78% of the world who doesn't have access to or use the Internet

If you can read this
You are luckier than the 1,000,000,000 people in the world who are illiterate

If you'll be eating dinner this evening
You are luckier than 32.6 million households in the USA who are considered "Food Insecure", meaning they continually have less food than they need, and lack financial resources to get that food.

If you have the day off from work
You are luckier than 10.1 million Americans who are currently unemployed

If you will sleep in a bed tonight
You are luckier than the 750,000+ people in the United States who are homeless

If you make the federal minimum wage of $6.55/hr
You are in the top 12% of richest people in the WORLD. Said another way, you are RICHER than 88% of the world!

If you live on more than $2.50/day
You are luckier than over 3 billion people worldwide who make due with less

If you can give your children a glass of water
You are luckier than the parents of the nearly 400 million children who do not have access to safe drinking water

If you have an adequate home
You are luckier than 80% of the world who live in substandard housing

If you can attend church without fear of harassment, arrest, torture or death
You are luckier than nearly 3 billion people without such freedom

If you are "more healthy" than not
You are luckier than the 600,000+ people who will not survive the week.

first week of school was, in retrospect, irksome and slow. its like having strawberry shortcake poke at you for 5 days straight, and even when youre pee-ing or sleeping, she's poking you. projects, assignments, and everything else are already dumped on us. so not anticipating tomorrow.

everytime i try to sever this one particular commitment, God stops me. i was thinking about it last week and wondering if i should talk to anybody about it and bam! last week's teaching was about being a faithful servant. this week, sitting in the chair falling asleep, i was thinking how terrible a person i was if i keep serving and go back to trying to keep awake during sermon. thinking how much less guilt i would feel if i were not in the worship ministry. though i love to serve Him so much through this facet, i would very much give up my passion for all the conflicting rationales. i was thinking of taking a hiatus til the morning commitment was over, but i really have no freaking idea how to guage that period of time. okay as i was saying, yesterday i was trying to keep my eyes open unconsciously and thinking and then bam! a prophecy about being an asset to the worship ministry. so for now, im stuck with a frustrating dilemma. is God trying to tell me something? am i too weak? why can others do this but not me? why are penguins so smelly? okay so for now, im sticking with pulling through. thats only for now, and when im exhausted and struggling with schoolwork and time and energy and stuff, then its a whole different viewpoint. and when i say for now i really mean for this moment that my mind has decided on being biased for a while. cause i have a feeling that this very week, i will either refuse to serve, step down, quit totally, or maybe, just inefficiently deal with it like before.

"Friends are the Bacon Bits in the Salad Bowl of Life."

thanks for confiding in me. (: though you should know that youre 'perfect for me in your own imperfect way'. sound familiar? (:

deep waters, dark nights.

8:58 PM, Monday, October 19, 2009

19th October, first day of school. filled with lethargy and lacklustre. a special few were manic, and that was that. school ended in the late afternoon, and i knew what i needed instantly. napped for an hour til 7. and then i realised - it was only Monday, and a packed Tuesday was next, with 7 hours of lectures and practicals in 8 hours of school. oh damn. come on, its just school, you've dealt with much worse. stop whining. okay conscience, i'm done with whining. QT later, and i'll rest and draw strength from the Lord. (:

dangerously far, yet too close for comfort.

12:03 AM, Sunday, October 18, 2009

just as the wind extinguishes candles and kindles wild fire, absence kills mediocre passions and intensifies great ones.

you were gone too soon tonight. i miss you.

plenty strong and plenty wrong.

6:35 PM, Tuesday, October 13, 2009

misery and agony. its the last week of the holidays. but i'm glad i made full use of my holidays to work, play, train and rest. not really ready for school and the new timetable isnt helping. everyday starts at 9, except for thursdays which starts at 8 and ends 6 hours later without any break at all. 5 different practicals in a week, friday ends at 730. and project 1 starts this semester. i will try my best to enjoy this semester and work even harder for my exams, and with God's grace and mercy, i will achieve my target.

have been balling and training in the sun alone quite frequently, and all the old dudes and dudettes must be wondering who is this weird young guy who always comes down to strip and play ball alone in the blistering sun.

okay now for something sensitive. have you ever been called skinny? or have you ever been called fat? its more probable that innocent young people have been called the first more frequently than people have been labelled fat. do you know why? the sad and ugly truth is that most people think that calling people skinny is nothing unethical, and it doesnt hurt anybody. but the even sadder and uglier truth is that people hate being called skinny. i've been called skinny and thin and 'oh ah boy ah you've to eat more meat, you only got bones only' and i freaking hate it. every time someone tells me that im skinny or thin, no matter who the person is, i will have to pull back my right fist and resist the urge to give the impolite bitch or bastard a cut and bleeding eye. being called skinny hurts just as much as when people are called fat. remember that. and if you've ever called someone skinny or thin before, you best be guilty and never do it again, because its so discriminating. worse still when people joke about it. its sickly offensive. for you innocent people who have been the victim of this, the next time someone calls you skinny, tell them this 'I don't call people fat because its insulting, and the same way i deserve the respect of not being called skinny or anorexic. i think it's very impolite. besides, for your information, i eat well, and i am not sick.' hoho. that will keep their dirty mouths shut.

looking forward to spending my last weekday holiday with the usual people below. hope it doesnt rain! (:

i promised to be there for you, and i will keep my word. just lean on me when you need to, you know i'm always here. i want to share your burdens, your fatigue, your pain. its my joy to do so, so will you let me? (:

if i were a monster.

2:04 PM,

just got hold of The Almost's EP, Monster. this EP is just to tide over fans in the wait for the upcoming Monster Monster full album release. dayumm this album is fantastic. love the song, Monster. yup its Christian lyrics. Aaron Gillespie is a drummer/clean singer in Underoath (which is by the way my all time favourite kickassuntilpurple band), and The Almost is a side project of his and he's fronting the band as the lead singer. many of Aaron's songs whether in Underoath (metalcore and screamo) or The Almost (alternative rock) are related to God. even if you arent a Christian, these songs will set you thinking and searching yourself. listen to this! (: and another song, (click on >) Hands, too. super catchy song. (: